That memorable day was on 26th December 2011.
He is the most precious thing i ever had.
I feel so blessed to have him in my life.

Here’s the labour story of him, my baby..

On 25th Dec (Christmas Day), around 1pm, i was feeling some kind of pain.
I dunno if that is contraction or is it just a braxton hicks that i’ve been experiencing all this while.
And so i waited longer.
The husband keep pestering me by asking if i want to head to the hospital.
But i kept saying, “wait first”.

At about 7pm, the pain got stronger and stronger.
Husband was sleeping at that time.
I got no choice but to wake him up and asked him to send me to hospital.
I think im contracting already.

Reached KKH at about 10pm.
went straight to level 2 to the Delivery Suite.
VE was done on me. The nurse was such an asshole.
I dunno what the hell she is doing.
She actually put her whole hand in me and pushes her hand very roughly!
VERY PAINFUL!
I mean VE was ever done on me. And its not that painful!
She must be some inexperienced nurse there.

After the check was done, she told me i was only 1cm dilated.

I can choose to go back home and come back the next day or got myself warded.
I told the husb, i rather be warded. coz we may not know how fast i will be dilating.
And i think being at home dilating and handling the contractions at home is quite dangerous and uncomfortable.

So i was warded that day.
Husband cannot stay. Coz i was warded into B2+.
No one in the ward except me.
Its so scary, really.
lucky i was in deep pain, if not i would have freak out staying in that ward all alone.
I cant sleep. contraction is soo painful. Its by far the worst pain i ever felt.
and i keep going to the toilet. its very uncomfortable.
and the ward nurse came up to me and say ” why are you not sleeping? people like us(nurses working night shift) wants to sleep cannot sleep.You are given a bed to sleep and you are not sleeping”
NI LAGI SATU NAK KENE MAKI DGN AKU.
I was in pain how to sleep idiot.
if i want to sleep, i rather sleep at home! irrit pe nurses ni sume. grr!

I beared the pain till the next morning.
At 7am, a doc do a VE check on me and i was 3cm dilated.

“You are progressing” he said
” we’ll send you to the labour ward now”
My heart was pounding real fast.
But at the same time im excited to give birth. lol.
I cant wait to see my baby!

Text husb that i will be shifted to labour ward Delivery Suite no 22.

I was made to wear a white bare-back ‘dress’.
but actually i think there’s no motive wearing that.
At the end of the day, i was like naked on the bloody bed. hahaha!

At 9.30 am, gynae burst my waterbag.
The liquid that gushed out of me was green-yellowish colour.
Then the gynae told me, the baby already poo-ed inside.
She needs me to deliver the baby very soon coz its definitely not good if the baby accidentally swallowed his own waste.
So i was induced. And they keep on increasing the dosage so that i could dilate faster.
OMG! as they keep on increasing the dosage, the pain got stronger.

At 11am, the contraction was every 5 mins and last for 30secs.. ( still ok)
I tried to be strong to bear the pain. Coz i told myself, no epidural.
But at 2pm, the pain was like  every 3 mins and last for 1 min.
Oh dear. i was crying and told the husb i cant the stand the pain.
I was shaking the bed everytime the contraction comes.  hahaha!
I used laughing gas at first. But its not helping, AT ALL!
it just makes me get more sleepy and weak but the pain never go away!

My mid-wife, a young girl, Hafizah
She’s very skillful and caring.
She told me, they will keep on increasing the dosage.
From how i was reacting, she say i will definitely not stand the pain later on.
and if i were to take epidural, i have to react fast coz when they are doing the procedures of inserting the epidural needle, i cant move and stay like a statue;) (even if the contraction comes, i have to stay still)
Mampos! told you, i was shaking the bed everytime contraction comes, and now they ask me to stay still.
But since i cannot tahan eh..i decided to take epi lor! They asked me to sign that whatever paper.
I didnt even care to read.
The doc came and did the insertion of epidural needle for me.
I stayed still. i was holding to the laughing gas equipment. They told me when contraction comes, breathe in the laughing gas and bear the pain. breathing techniques comes lor.
Finally, the epidural needle was successfully inserted in my back(near the spine).

after that, i dont feel the pain anymore! awesome. and i was not numb. thats good!
wonders of Epidural eh.

At 6pm, the machine that monitors the baby’s heartbeat produces a different sound.
i asked the husb what happened? why the sound so awkward.
Suddenly my gynae rushed in and check.
She told me the baby’s heartbeat was dropping.
I cannot wait anymore and will be send for caesarean.
They did a VE check on me, i was 7 cm dilated.
they gave me another 30mins. If im not dilating any further, i will be pushed to the operating theater.
I was crying with the husband. We are afraid we might lose our baby.
Husband was worried if i were to be ‘cut’ too.

FInally at 6.20pm, they did a VE check again, i was 9cm dilated.
My gynae said, she will need me to give it a try to push.
She’ll try her best to make me deliver normally(vaginal).
And suddenly, theres like 5 gynaes in my suite. 3 seniors and 2 juniors.
Together with my 2 mid-wives.
my leg was opened widely.
they pushed my legs up. everyone was infront of me watching me. OMG! malu eh.
Lucky i was in pain( coz they actually stopped the epi dose to make me feel the pain)
by the count of 3, take a deep breathe in,
And pushed, hold for 10 secs.
That pushing techniques really make  me out of breath leyy~!
The gynaes and nurses cheered for me like as if i was competing in a marathon. hehe!
After 7 pushes, i feel something glide out of me.
And after that, the whole room filled with his cries.
I cried the moment i saw him out of me.
The feeling was surreal… Alhamdulillah ya Allah..I am a mother ;’(

At 6.32pm on 26th December 2011, you make your first appearance to see Umi and Baba.
You weigh 3.012kg
You are 50cm tall
Your head circumference is 33cm.
Welcome to the World my dearest son.

I love you the moment i saw you.
You are totally perfect in my eyes.
I promise to take care of you till my last breath.
I pray that you will be a good muslim, clever and healthy lil boy.
I always want the best of you.
Umi loves you sayang.

To the Husband,
Thank you for being who you are. A supportive and caring husband. Thank you for accompanying me for check up thruout my pregnancy and being with me thruout my labour.  <3 u!

And so, Syukur ke hadrat Allah SWT, we are a family now.
Presenting our newborn, Mohammad Rizq Fida’iy BIn Mohammad Fiezwan